When Paul and I were dating, I wanted to be married and start a family of our own. And now, sometimes I catch myself, wanting to be alone or wishing Calgon could take me away. Or wondering if I should've got married so early and traveled. It's stupid to want what I you don't have. So now thinking even more about it, I think I'm good. I love my family, my husband, and I wouldn't trade any trip around the world for them.When Paul and I were working out of our home office, we were dreaming of having an office/warehouse/retail store to go to everyday. Now that we have the store, although I adore it, has it's not so great qualities. Like the fact that I no longer have the kiddos with me all day. Although great for business, it's not so great with the time that I originally wanted to spend with my kids, and the other reason I left my "day time" job in the first place.
Our kids are growing up right before our eyes, and I feel like I'm missing some of it.
I haven't blogged in awhile and after meeting with my childhood friend, Jamie, last week, I was inspired again to write about our lives.
Sam, Sammie, Samantha is turning 13 next month. I can't believe that I am less than a month away from claiming that I have a "teenager". So scary just thinking about it. My little cousin, Carla, just graduated from H.S. last month. Carla and Sam share the same birthday. Carla is 5 years older than Sam, so that graduation was an eye-opener for me. I'm thinking to myself...in just five years, Sam will be gone. Away to college. At least that's what the parenting chart I drew up says. lol I've been drilling Sam since the first grade that she's going to take a certain track in life. And every year, she surpasses what I expect from her. Honor Roll, Singing performances, and just how she takes on a lot of responsibility by helping me with all the duties I ask of her, Sam is going to be special. I would never let down my tough exterior with her, and I'm pretty sure that she doesn't read this blog...but inside I can't wait to watch her shine. 
Alexa will be turning 4 next month. Lucky for me (not really), all three kids birthdays are in August. Alexa is a tough cookie. She talks back, she doesn't listen. She questions everything you tell her and after all of that, she is the sweetest little girl. Almost always, I can break her tough girl act by engaging in tickle fights or sneaking compulsive hugs and kisses. I catch myself raising my voice at her, then I have to remind myself that I don't want her to be afraid to be strong and not to accept what everyone tells her. I'm hoping that she remains strong minded as she gets older. Alexa walks to the beat of her own drum. A true leader. Although as a 4 year old, it comes off as "bossy". lolToday, before I left for work, I was trying to get Hunner to wave good bye to me. I must've said "Bu-bye Hunner Boy" like 5 times. Then Alexa pouted and said, "How about me mom! Are you gonna say bye to me!?" It was quite funny. That's so my girl. I love it!
And my boy...hunny boy. I adore him. You couldn't ask for a happier baby. Always smiling and laughing and playing. He brightens my day. He is so friendly. He's so smart. He picks up on things quickly. He knows how to high five, blow a flying kiss, finger no-no-no, gives open mouth kisses, says, "Mar!" for more food. He loves and is really attached to me. 
I can't leave the room or pass by his bassinet without him laugh-crying at me. He has 8 teeth now. Four up top and four on the bottom. He smiles with his teeth. It's so adorable. I DO NOT want him to grow. I love him at this age. I love everything about his smile and I love his hair. I fight myself on whether or not to cut his hair. All my relatives keep telling me to cut his hair, but I don't want to all too much. I love his beautiful long hair and he is just too cute with it. I call him Hunner-Bieber! hahahaha So I'm thinking I'm going to cut it when I'm ready! (Is that selfish of me?)BTW...doesn't the pic of Hunner's lips look familiar:
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